I'm in no shape to run the Capital 10k

A girlfriend, Jannah, e-mailed last week and asked if I'd be interested in running the Capital 10K. Wow, that is 6.4 miles. Let me think....no. Okay, but I am a little nuts, so I actually told her yes. I've run this race before, as a pre-teen, with my father. I think it would be exciting to run this again. The only problem.....I am in no shape to run 6.4 miles.

I can run....but slowly, on a treadmill. I have not run outdoors in probably 2 years. Almost stepped on a snake, one morning. That was enough to bring me indoors indefinitely. Have I also ever mentioned that I have a herniated disk in my lower back and my last doctor told me I should run! What do they know ~

Last I tried, I can run almost 3 miles on a treadmill. The race is on March 29th, so I have a little over a month to train for the other 3.5 miles. I am not going to stress over this too much. Jannah is not an avid runner either, so if we have to walk some we will both be okay with it.

My goal for this race is to use it as motivation to keep training (loss weight) and to finish the race without walking. I do not care what my time is, I just want to finish without walking!

Did I mention I am a stress eater!

Okay, so I haven't blogged since 01/03/09. I really did try to log my diet and exercise over the last week. Well, logging my exercise would have consisted of.....two days on the treadmill, so you didn't miss much. Anyway, so I have been so stress (physically & emotionally) because of work. I usually push myself really hard, but the last two months really put me over the edge.

I've been working on a project with 3 other girls since November 24th. We've basically audited our entire circuit inventory for cost and billing codes. To make matters worse, we had to "let people go" her, and I took it very hard. Watching people I've worked with for years leave was emotionally taxing. To make matters worse (on top of this looming, high profile project) the lay off result in larger work loads for the rest of us.

I didn't gain any weight over the last three weeks, but I haven't lost any.....like I planned to. I've not consistently logged my diet either. As I started to say, I tried this past week. I even have my notes from Monday & Tuesday, but after that point, I did not have the time to log anything, much less blog about.

This is not an excuse. It's reality. I am not giving up though. I am starting my log again today. Wish me luck!

There's no Crying at the Gym!

At least there shouldn't be. I can say I haven't cried at the gym yet, but it almost happened Wednesday night. I met with Cole at 7:30 for a very unsuccessful workout. No only was I physically exhausted, but my emotional state was pathetic. At the start of our first cycle I was ready to give up and almost started crying. I have never felt so defeated. Cole got me thru the work out, but I can tell you I didn't leave feeling recharged. I actually felt worse then when I came in.

Stress Eater!

Okay, so even though I didn't log my diet last week, I just want to make it public that I am a stress eater. I really didn't eat anything not on my self imposed "healthy eating" list.....I just ate too much of it. I am finding it harder and harder to focus at work and the first thing I THINK i need is food. I always knew I was a stress eater, but I am finally trying to do something about it.

Cole suggested celery instead of carrots, soybeans etc....only because there are no calorie intake with celery. I am also trying to be aware when I am "stress eating". At that point I need to get up and go for a short walk around the building and or find a spot to stretch or lay down and breath!

What a day!

Okay, so I had this in drafts and never posted it. This is from Monday 01/19/09:

What a day we had here at Grande. It was very stressful watching my co-workers "leave", but I am just glad I was not one of them. I had a couple of (or a continuous) anxiety attacks today. I wish I had training with Cole today, but was really proud of myself for going to the Gym on my own. Actually, I think going to the Gym is the only thing that saved me today. I walked/ jogged for an hour with 30 minutes of continuous jogging @ 5.5 miles/hr! That is the first time of done this kind of running in a while. I know it is because I had so much pent of energy/ stress. I am just glad I had an outlet!

Hasn't anyone heard of Spanks?

So, when I rolled out this new blog to some friends, these are some of the responses I got:

"Cyndi...you don't need to lose weight"
"so are you planning to starve yourself"
"you are already thin! Do you want to look sick"
"If you think you need to lose weight what must you think of me!"

Let me start by reminding everyone that my goals are not entirely weight loss. I am trying to live a healthier life. I do also want to look better, but I think the weight loss is almost a side effect of proper diet and exercise...duh!

Anyway, what I want to say to everyone is....haven't you ever heard of Spanks! They are not a new innovation., but none the less a great product. I actually don't own "Spanks". My spandex is from Maidenform, but it works just the same.....holds the belly, hips, and thighs in, so I can wear fun little dresses! Long before Spanks, women were wearing "garments" to help shape the body. What do you think a corset was originally for! It didn't start out as a Dominatrix outfit. It does serve a purpose!

I could never be bulimic!

So, I started this blog on Tuesday with great anticpation. Then I got sick....I caught a stomach virus. Without going into any details....let's just say I could not and would not ever become bulimic!